Blabbering

I'm super bored today. I stayed late last night to finish all the projects I had for work. I didn't want to ask for more work today, even though I'm bored cause I wouldn't be able to finish it cause I'll be gone to MN tomorrow!!

Why MN? It's my Aunt's 70th birthday party celebration along with her anniversary with Uncle. She is my mom's oldest sibling too. My mom is the youngest sibling in her family. MN is known as Hmongville since so many live there (WI is next, and look, they are neighbors, lol).

 



I actually have no immediate family in GA except for my parent and siblings. My dad's side are mostly in WI. I get to see them also this weekend since they will be joining us on Saturday for the party. I cannot wait to see everyone. It's been a while.

It'll just be my parents, my sister, and me leaving tomorrow. My parents decided to extend their stay for a week because a cousin's grandmother passed away and they want to attend the funeral. Unfortunately for my sister and me, we cannot stay.

My sis hasn't been to MN in two decades!! The last time I was there was 3 years ago for a wedding. I didn't get too see all the relatives either. This time, I hope to see them all, especially the ones traveling from WI.

I'm also meeting up with Bollywood fanatics like me and we plan to watch Chennai Express! Yah!!! I'm really digging the OST, especially Ready Steady Po. Bring the masala!





In GA, most of the kids have already started school. Most family and friends outside of GA were questioning why we start so early since they start after Labor Day. GA schools last day also is before Memorial Day and they get longer breaks off too.

The weather is gloomy and raining this week but I'm happy to know that MN will be sunny. I was debating whether or not to bring jeans but I think I am, just in case, lol.

I was worried about the Fitbit Challenge at work about not hitting my goal steps and I was right, I already started off bad this week by not meeting the regular 10,000 steps. I went to bed last night early and got 8 hours of sleep, lol. Honestly, I wasn't feeling that well either but I feel great now...

The fitbit has actually helped me in helping me get out of a plateau so I'm happy. I just have to step it up. Whether or not, I win the challenge, I'm not worried about anymore since I just plan to hit my own personal goals.

I have the Fitbit Flex. My friends and family who have the fitbit have a different kind. I've heard the Fitbit One more instead. What I don't like about the Flex is that I cannot see the actual steps I've made, just shows dots when reaching a certain number but it does buzz when I hit my goal that day.



Also, I thought it will sync in with my phone, I was mislead, lol. My phone is next to my laptop with the usb to sync, and I thought it was syncing but it wasn't. I have an older Samsung Galaxy. Oh well.

Enough of the blabbering, will be posting on Instagram, pics throughout my week. I'm excited. Follow me on Instagram - ApunBindaas

Hello Blogworld

I am here, just never updated.

I have nothing exciting going on with life.

However, I have been very stressed out in the past few month. $$$$

It's all about the Benjamin's. Seriously.

If Love makes the world go round, I would be so much richer and not have to stress about $$$

Right now, I am working two jobs again. Oh well, gotta do what I gotta do.

No time for movies, only on weekends.

I still try to update my Facebook with photos but not much since then. Maybe I should move those pics on here?

My hair is growing much longer. I haven't had a haircut in over a year. I'm too broke to go to my hair stylist. I refuse to go to those cheap chains because I've gotten my hair chopped off too short or hair stuck in blowdryer before. Seriously. Plus I like complicated layers and styles that an average Jane Joe cannot work on.

Other than all that, I have a boring life, will try better to update

What is Happiness?

That question comes up a lot. Especially for me. Everyone defines happiness differently. Whether or not, you may seem to agree. Some people get happiness just by making others smile. While others want more materialistic things to be happy.

For me, happiness is being carefree. With all that, I want to be stressfree with money. I love everything about my life, except for the financial situations. (Oh yeah, my weight too but that's another issue at another time)

I need to do some soul searching about my career path and goals. Right now, I haaaaate my current full time job. I used to not hate it. I was just content. Right now, I'm not even content. I don't see myself working here in the future because there is no room for advancement. I felt like that earlier this year.

By summer time, I wanted to take advantage of their education tuition reimbursement, only to my shockness, that they will no longer offer that. I was upset. I've been with the company for 7 years, 3 out of those 7 years, I've gotten a raise (so yes, do the math, half of the years, I've been here, no raise), believe me, the raise is less than 2%. I was one of the ones who got a raise this year, but guess what...at 1%, forget it.

I know, I should be just be fortunate to have a job. But I don't have to settle for less, you know. Especially if I'm not happy. I've talked to some of my friends who have gotten raises and are happy. After much thought and consideration, it is the industry of the company that you work in.

Not only that, I don't understand why my managers let my co-workers sly with coming to work late every day, taking smoke breaks every hour, calling in sick, etc. I know I could do the same thing but my work ethics and morals are not the same. I believe I don't have to stoop to their levels.

Because of that reason, I need to re-think about my life, what I want. Right now, I am doing three people's jobs because either they got laid off or quit. I think it's unfair. I know life is unfair...but it's up to me to change my fate/destiny, right?

Right now, I am hoping to find a better job, just so I won't have to come to work every day, hating it. The moral of my life has gotten down.

Career-wise and financially...I want to feel better...happier...stress-free.

I know the economy isn't at its best shape now, bills are stacking up high. I know but I have to stay strong for my family and me.

I did it!

I turned in my two-weeks notice in at my part time job last Friday. I cannot wait to finally leave. I freaking haaaaate retail. I will never do that again. Customers are rude. Managers expect too much.

If I find another part time job that is reasonable, I will take it.

Honestly, I thought that working retail would be fun and brainless but the expectations are too high. Come on, I am a part-timer. I took the initiative to learn the products...and even in another department. I am the highest "sales" person in rank...but just cause I cannot get customers to open up credit cards, my overall rank is low. I refuse to harass customers to open up credit cards. No is a no. I ask two main questions - "do you have a xxx card?" "would you like to have one? you could save xxx money today." That's it.

Toothache

I have a really bad toothache!

This toothache is soooo bad that it's causing me to have headaches! That's what I believe.

Now, I know that it is entirely MY fault for not getting it fix earlier. I have a cavity on one of my tooth that is causing the pain.

I knew about this several years ago but ignored it. Why? Because during that time, when the dentist told me the news, I didn't feel any pain.

Plus the cost to have it done was a lot of money because it's the canine tooth. Insurance pays some part but still....

Last year, that particular tooth cracked and a small portion is gone. It still didn't hurt me so I ignored it! For the past few months, it has been hurting.

Just the past few weeks, I have been using Orajel to ease the pain. It gets so bad that I cannot sleep at night.

That is all my fault! Urgh.

Finally today, I made an appointment to see the dentist next month. My dentist office is open on Saturday's and since it's a busy time for me at work, I can only go on Saturday's.

On top of being really busy at work, now I am very biatchy because of the toothache.

Confuse

Sometimes I get confused on which blog of mine should I post something? My main love is movies. I hardly blog about Hollywood but probably I need to.

I've been behind in posting my food photos up. I do get some hit on here. Some people think my Hmong blog is my personal blog, lol. Sometimes I want to rant on some Hindi or Telugu film I have seen but don't want to do that on my Indian cinema blog. Same thing for my Asian cinema blog.

Levels of friendships

I know, what a title, huh?
After discussing this with a few friends, I have been thinking about this for some time.

There are levels of friendships.
This is not a case of who's the better friend or not. It's friends for different occasions.

First, let’s talk about Facebook friends.

This is a subject all on its own. I’ve had Facebook for about 6 years, waaay before it became popular like it is today. During that time, I had many friends in college who were using Facebook to communicate with friends and they invited me to join. You either had to have a college e-mail or get invited by someone.

Within the past few years, Facebook took it to another level with helping re-connecting people you haven’t seen or heard from since childhood. Now, that was fun. However, it started to raise some eyebrows too, especially for those who just wants to remain “Facebook” friends, meaning all you do is “like” each others status, pictures, etc. You never have to really hang out because in reality, one of you really don’t want or even care to. While the first few months was cool with you two catching up, it faded afterwards. At times, you wondered how that person is doing. You will send that person a message or post on their wall just to get a generic response back, “I’m doing good, how about you?” Then that’s it. A year goes by and same thing.

Co-workers who are your Facebook friends. That can be tricky, especially if you’re a private person and don’t really need the whole office talking about what you did over the weekends with your friends. It was none of their business and you didn’t realize that they were your Facebook friends. Co-workers who don’t even have Facebook have been informed of what you were doing from the co-workers who are your Facebook friends. Not so cool.

Let’s not forget Facebook friends who you have met once. Whether you met at a party or a gathering, you two became Facebook friends afterwards. Mainly to get pictures of each other because both of you were in the photos. However, ever since then, that’s all it was. One Encounter Facebook Friend. You two won’t make time to hang out in real life because you don’t really know each other, just so happens that you two happen to be at the same place with mutual friends to hang out. Until another event like this happens again, maybe once a year, then you will meet up again.

Mutual friends. Adding each other because of mutual friends. You two should know each other, it was meant to be. Facebook has this notification pop out with “people you may know.”

People you never met, making friends online then adding on Facebook. Sometimes you can tell if you're cool with someone right away, especially people with the same interest.

Using the message instead of writing on walls. When you write on the wall, you kinda want all of your mutual friends and your friend’s friends to see what that person is doing, kinda like making an announcement. Otherwise, you would stick with the message in the inbox so it would be more private. Not everyone cares if you go to the mall tomorrow...but somehow you want that attention from others. "why not invite me too?" "have fun you two!"

Maybe I take this more personally than others. I don’t mind making friends but I value my friendships with others a lot. I think I go out of my way more than others would for me. It’s not just about being friends and that’s it. I continue to keep in touch no matter what.

Ever since I was younger, every year, I send out Christmas cards to friends and family. One year, I didn’t do that. My cousin ask me if I was okay because she was used to receiving a card from me annually (even though she never sends me one). That’s just how I am.

Because of all the social networking sites out there. I turn to blogging and Twitter for people with the same interest as me. Someone on Twitter posted about Facebook being a place for friends you went to school with while Twitter is for people who you wish you went to school with. I can relate to that. I started blogging to share with others my love on Indian cinema. But since I’m a huge fan of movies, I created another blog on Asian cinema. Then added Hmong information since I used to send emails on interesting information. Since I like to blab, I started my personal blog, which I am writing in right now.

In the end, it's good to have friends to hang out with, whether you've known them forever or just met. Just make sure to remain a friend and be there for each other.

But in the end, I love my family more than anything. My family = hubby and kids.

Becoming Vegetarian (again)

I mentioned yesterday that one of my goals is to become vegetarian (again).



For those who don't know me, I did it before. I was vegetarian for a whole year! During that time, I ate no meat products, not even chicken or fish, nothing "living" that used to breathe (eggs are always a debate!)

My main purpose was not to lose weight but more for inspirational, spiritual cleansing from within.

That was almost 5 years ago.
Why did I start eating meat again? So, why now?

I've been thinking for the past few months ago about going back. Growing up Hmong doesn't help either. Actually growing up Asian is tough since we eat anything that breathes, takes oxygen (except for humans :D lol) Hmong people eat a lot of pork, actually a lot of Asian dishes have pork.

The main reason I started to eat meat again was because the doctor told me my iron level is too low and I had to start eating meat again. Therefore, I started to eat chicken. Then chicken lead to some pork. Then I went back to my old eating habits again (except for beef, I absolutely hate the taste!)

But now, with more education and becoming aware of my surroundings, I want to do it again. Become vegetarian, or at least try!.

In addition, as I grow older, my body is weakening so I want to make it stronger and healthier. I think eating less meat will also help. It could also be my mental mind.
Plus the love of the Indian culture has influence it a lot. Good food doesn't have to contain a lot of meat or meat at all. Indian food are mostly vegetables, very tasty and flavorable without the meat. It's all how you marinate it and put in the dish.

I found this information about different types of vegetarians :D



1. Pescatarian (also spelled pescetarian)
The word “pescatarian” is occasionally used to describe those who abstain from eating all meat and animal flesh with the exception of fish. Although the word is not commonly used, more and more people are adopting this kind of diet, usually for health reasons or as a stepping stone to a fully vegetarian diet.

2. Flexitarian/Semi-vegetarian
You don’t have to be vegetarian to love vegetarian food! “Flexitarian” is a term recently coined to describe those who eat a mostly vegetarian diet, but occasionally eat meat.

3. Vegetarian (Lacto-ovo- vegetarian)
When most people think of vegetarians, they think of lacto-ovo-vegetarians. People who do not eat beef, pork, poultry, fish, shellfish or animal flesh of any kind, but do eat eggs and dairy products are lacto-ovo vegetarians (“lacto” comes from the Latin for milk, and “ovo” for egg).
Lacto-vegetarian is used to describe a vegetarian who does not eat eggs, but does eat dairy products.
Ovo-vegetarian refers to people who do not eat meat or dairy products but do eat eggs.

4. Vegan
Vegans do not eat meat of any kind and also do not eat eggs, dairy products, or processed foods containing these or other animal-derived ingredients such as gelatin. Many vegans also refrain from eating foods that are made using animal products that may not contain animal products in the finished process, such as sugar and some wines. There is some debate as to whether certain foods, such as honey, fit into a vegan diet.

5. Raw vegan/Raw food diet
A raw vegan diet consists of unprocessed vegan foods that have not been heated above 115 degrees Fahrenheit (46 degrees Celsius). “Raw foodists” believe that foods cooked above this temperature have lost a significant amount of their nutritional value and are harmful to the body.

6. Macrobiotic
The macrobiotic diet, revered by some for its healthy and healing qualities, includes unprocessed vegan foods, such as whole grains, fruits and vegetables, and allows the occasional consumption of fish. Sugar and refined oils are avoided. Perhaps the most unique qualifier of the macrobiotic diet is its emphasis on the consumption of Asian vegetables, such as daikon, and sea vegetables, such as seaweed.



I am going for #2 first
2. Flexitarian/Semi-vegetarian

You don’t have to be vegetarian to love vegetarian food! “Flexitarian” is a term recently coined to describe those who eat a mostly vegetarian diet, but occasionally eat meat.

For now, I am eating meatless weekdays and weekends eating only chicken and/or fish. But if I was to eat chicken on a weekday, I have to pick either Saturday or Sunday to be meatless :D

Updates and random thoughts on my life

I haven't done an update on my blog about me in a while. When I first started the blog, I just wanted to jot down some thoughts I had. Then it became a rant blog. So I just didn't want to sound like an angry Asian bitch on here.

Since then, I haven't blogged much.

Just recently, I have been posting photos of food. I cook almost everyday. I don't cook everyday because sometimes my family and I eat the leftovers from the previous day or I'm really busy and am unable to cook. I hardly go out and eat. And if I do, it will be quick stops to get food.

I'm not a high maintenance girl and don't splurge on myself. The most I've done for myself is spend money on my hair cuts but I have to be frugal because prices on utilities and cost of living are going up but my paycheck isn't.

It's great that I still have a job. I'm thankful for that. Sometimes, I wonder why I don't advance and better myself. It's the comfort zone. Plus, I am afraid of failure...even more so than death lately.

Every time I take one step forward, seems like when I'm down, I tumble down three steps back. I've been really depress and sad in the past few months, hiding it well from a lot of my friends. Only a few close friends know what's going on.

One of my close friends, J, has been there from me from beginning to end of this depression of mine. I have made a decision that will probably hurt me for a few months but I chose that path to do it because it's what's right at this moment. It may seem like a burden but it's only temporary. 2010 started off okay then dipped, and now, I don't want it to end bad.

It's a bit of a stress relief with me even writing this post. I hide behind my entertainment life and laughter but inside, it's rough and hurting.

I don't want anyone to feel sorry for me. We all choose the path we take and make the best of it.

Many faces (hair styles) of me....

Back in the days, okay, only a year ago, I used to dye my hair all the time. It has been a year and a half since I have *not* dyed my hair.

I ain't gonna lie...I do miss my blonde hair. So much maintenance keeping up with it.

Plus I used to chop my hair off all the time too. This time, I plan to grow out my hair!

This is always debatable with me. Short or Long Hair?

When my hair gets long, I always end up cutting my hair. I am a very boring and lazy person when it comes to styling my hair.

Long hair makes me feel sexier but I do think short hair makes me feel more youthful.

Regardless...here is a picture post of my hair styles (and color!)

Okay, this pic is for fun, I look horrible!!! My NKOTB days. Loooooove them, still do :D
Look at my horrible hair!! Bushy eyebrows :D


Okay, hair is better but still had the bushy eyebrows!


Here's another one of my 90s fashion, at least the hair is cooler, right?


Then I went really short


I found some pics of me when I used to tag my name on them. These are within the past 5 years, no more throwbacks! Yes, that much hair changes!!

I found the bleach!


Yes, I went from blonde to red!!


Mixing the blonde & red
Experiment!


And back to blonde again!


Then went back to my roots


Then more orangey to match my tan


Forgive my ugly expression...but had to chop it off again


Love the layers!


Bipasha inspired hair


A birthday pic of me in 2008
I don't usually wear makeup


More colors?


December 2009, dark hair, makeup by my friend, Naly X


Birthday pic, 2010, another Bipasha inspired hairstyle!


May 2010, Mother/Daughter photoshoot


June 2010, in MN, hair done by my friend, Stephanie


Yes, my hair is growing...
This is the most recent pic of me with my hair long, I flat-ironed it. August 2010


This pic, I just took this past Sunday (September 2010) to show off the green contacts for my friend who sold it to me.


Thanks for following me on my hair journey....
So....long or short hair? And what color? :D

3rd year for Kaiser Permanente Corporate Run/Walk

2010 will be the third year I will participate with the Kaiser Permanente Corporate Run/Walk sponsered by my job.

Honestly, last year, even though I registered, didn't get to participate. During Labor Day weekend, I sprained my spinal cord while playing volleyball. So with the doctor's advise, I was out of work for a week! I wasn't able to walk right until 4 weeks later.

What I love about joining with the company...I pay absolutely NOTHING! They company pays for the registration, lunch, and I get freebies at the race. And even get a free membership for a month!

The first year, I joined, Bally's sponsored. Last year, Bodyplex sponsored. This year, it's going to be LA Fitness. I cannot wait to use my 4-weeks free pass tonight!

Landscaping outside home & garden

Hubby does a wonderful job with the landscaping and garden at home! I'm glad he has a passion for it. Otherwise, I would have an ugly outdoor home :D
 

Not only that, he grows veggies for us to eat.

There are more but didn't take pics of them all. Maybe I will next time :D

Besides being a wonderful hubby and father, he fixes my car too. All I do is drive and sometimes put gas in the tank. What more could I ask for?

Hiatus

I mentioned on Twitter about my long hiatus soon, to focus on life. Seriously. I spend too much time online reading all the updates on Twitter, Facebook, Blogger, you name it.

Right now, I am making decisions to better myself and my family.

Please still do keep in touch with me via e-mail. I've made a long, tough decision to do this. Yes, so no new movies and reviewing from me either.

I will still log on my other social networking sites to check messages but will not read all updates.

Honestly, I am not sure how long the hiatus will be...but after a few more movie reviews on my Indian cinema page, then that's it...until then....

"You are your worst critic"

We always want what we don't have. Most of it deals with genetic, nothing we could really control.

If we have black hair, we want blonde. If we have blue eyes, we want green. If we are tall, we want to be shorter. The list is endless.

Women are the worse at this. People can tell us that we're beautiful but we still don't see that because "inside" we don't agree.

One of my girlfriends was telling me that she thinks she has buggy eyes and a big forehead. I told her no way!!! I think she's hot but she doesn't. I think I have a a huge forehead and ugly eyes since my eyelids are uneven.

See, we are our worst critic.

I, personally, notice things about myself that others don't. That is my fault since I bring attention to it and now, I get them to see my flaws!

Then I think to myself...was there ever a time that I loved myself? Not really....

I do know my hubby tells me daily that he loves me just the way I am. After all the weight gains and tacky, mix-match outfits, he still stands by my side.

He definitely loves me for who I am because I was never the beautiful, thin girl. I've always been big-boned, had some meat on me.

I know all of this...but why do I still want to be change my image? Lose that weight that haven't been lost in many years? Change my hair or clothes to look good?

My problem is I compare myself to others too much. Why can't I be thin like that? I feel that if I'm thinner, I would look better in a lot outfits. True, true, that I have had kids and I'm in my mid 30s now but there are women who are in their 40s and had more kids than me and look hot!!!

I think this will always be an ongoing process for me.

Until I love myself more (or lose lots of weight???), I will continue to feel like this.....

I do NOT know how to swim! :(

I started this post on Friday but never finished it.

I tweeted about the weather getting up to the mid 90s this weekend and going to pool but not knowing how to swim :(

My encouraging Tweet buddies encouraged me. Thanks ladies for always making me :)

For some reason, I have this fear of water. It cannot be above my waist or I feel like I'm drowning. I don't even like taking a shower and holding my head up facing the faucet.

I have had dreams before with me drowning but was somehow saved, whether it's from a dolphin or just waking up since nothing happened to me. The dream always ending with me tredding water, needing help, but that's it. Or the dolphin saving me. I love dolphins so that may be the reason.

It's ironic about water since I think being around a beach, lake, or pool is very calming and passive. On top of that, I love drinking water only. Don't like many other beverages out there.



PS - took the kids to the pool yesterday. I got a bad burn and had heat stroke! aaaahhhh...that's what happens with 95+ degrees weather in Atlanta

The F bomb

I don't cuss a lot. I'm not going to lie and say that I don't cuss. I do.

However, when I do, I am. EXTREMELY. Pissed off.

I slipped one out yesterday.

My co-worker took a double-look at me to make sure she heard me right.

And she was. I told her, what she heard was right.

Sometimes, you just have your limits. You can tolerate so much and it comes out.

Instead of using F*ck, I usually say Freaking instead.

Just a random rant.....

"Broke"

Everyone is "broke" all the time.

Whether or not, you have $1,000, $100, or even $10 left in the bank is up to that person's terminology if the status is "broke."

Most oftenly, it's the situtation we put ourselves in. Lawyers and doctors are "broke" too.

We, the middle class, may not see that because we know they make the big $$ but choose to spend on more luxurious things in life. For example, instead of eating at Golden Corral, they are dining at high-end restaurants in Buckhead, such as Geisha House. Or instead of shopping at TJ Maxx and Marshall's, they are off shopping at Banana Republic and Sax Fifth Avenue.

In conclusion, don't judge others. Just worry about your own situtation

Which phrase is more accurate?

“Good things come to those who wait”

or

“The early bird catches the worm”

A month ago I posted on Facebook about me having patience but not everything is turning out to be the way I want it to be. Maybe it's my high output expectations of life that is making me feel disappointed?

So is that phrase accurate? "Good things come to those who wait"

My friend told me it's "the early bird catches the worm"

I'm just not an attention-seeking person. Maybe that's my problem.

For me, I rather let it happen first and then tell people.

I don't like to boast about things that may happen but it may not.

Maybe it's just my level of pride and accomplishments.

For example, I hear soooo many people telling me that they are going to school for this and that and they will make a certain amount of money.

Good for you.

I'm talking about the Asian people that I know around my same age group, some even younger.

Many of them have been bragging to me about going to a certain college for a degree. But then again, 80% of them haven't even finish school either.

It was how they felt at that time. Whatever reason it was for them to not finish school, it's the level of disappointment I hear from them when someone ask, "how's school going" or "how long do you have"



Maybe I should go for "the early bird catches the worm"

Take all I can and make use of it??

I could, but that's not me....

To me, I go out of my way a lot for others. Many of them do not appreciate it. However, it makes me feel good inside.

For example, I often volunteer myself to help out someone, stay later than usual at a birthday party to help clean up, send out random cards to friends to let them know I am thinking about them, plan a surprise party for my mom's friend because I think she is an amazing lady.

Maybe my tactic is not as great as a goal seeker and attention getter but I still believe that what I like to do, blog what I like, and my thoughts.

Posting photos online Etiquettes (of others)

1. Don't always assume that posting pictures online is okay.

2. If you look good in a group picture (more than 2 people), ask the other person if it's okay to post the picture. Just because you look good doesn't mean that person feel the same.

3. Do unto others as you want them to do unto you. When you posted that ugly picture of that person, why get mad that an ugly picture of you is up now?

4. If that person wants to see the pictures, e-mail the pictures, no need posting online. Make a private album, only give access to those who are in the picture. Let it be up to that person to post themselves.

5. If your life is that boring that you need photo comments online to feel special, then you really need to get out more and get a life.

I have to admit that I used to not do this. I used to think it was just "cute" just to post online.

It's a matter of experience and learning that made me to where I am today.

My hubby is really against me posting pictures online of him and the kids. It's a security issue for him. He says if I want to post pics of myself, go ahead. Just leave him and the kids out.

A few of my friends were really against posting any pictures of them online. Now, I understand. Just because you and a group of friends think it's okay to do so, does not make it right. If you wanted to share, you could ask first. Or post them and  then take it down later, especially if the pics are of an event months or years ago.

Maybe I look awful now that I'm feeling this? No, not really. I do look awful but I feel weird leaving some of my older pics up now. If people haven't seen it yet, then too bad on them. It's called e-mailing so they could have their own.

It's the point of friends of friends who also have access or those who don't know you or the other person having access.

Social networking makes it so much easier now.

I may seem a lot younger than my age (30s) but that's because of the fangirlness when I watch Indian cinema. However, in reality, everything else, I think I am mature at. When it comes to the "real" life, I believe I am a responsible and sincere person.

Maybe that's my mistake, I think of others before myself. Therefore, there is the miscommunication of me feeling like an idiot sometimes.